What to write on a blog?

   Ya know I'm not exactly sure what's suppose to go on a blog. The only thing I'm good at doing is rambling. So, I'll ramble and hopefully you can filter through it and find some useful information. Let's see, well how about a little about myself. Well, I'm at one of those things people call a cross road. I have always wanted to be an artist. I can imagine myself directing, writing, and filming all kinds of things all the time. But, when the time comes I can't move. I can't even go outside of my house sometimes because this fear takes over me. My Mother calls it laziness. I kind of always thought I should be on some type of medication for it.
   But, that is definitely something I could never bring up to my family. It would be the norm to get pregnant at a young age or start doing drugs. But, be put on anti-depressants was NOT an option lol. One thing I do know is I suck at writing grammatically correct sentences. In high school I loved my theater classes and always got A's. I think because of my enthusiasm for theater and english my teachers purposely over looked my issues. I should definitely take some classes when I get the chance. I'd love to start writing scripts again and this time...with a vengeance. 
  Back to the cross road. I want to do something with my life. What exactly I don't know. I did go to school for video production and I loved it. But, overall my school was a scam and it definitely discouraged me. I think that if I just got the courage to pick up the camera again then things would happen. I stare at the camera every day and can't touch it. What's wrong with me?